I made it through my first week back from vacation... *sniffle* I'm not crying anymore. (much)
The weekend looks good... lessons Sat and Sun on both red-headed horses, Sera and Rosso.
Barn cleaning... always a nice introspective couple o' hours with horses, shavings and stalls. (and a minor work out as well - bonus!)
Swimming over at Mrs. Kravitz's house.
Helping a friend put together a drip irrigation system so I get a preview of what to install at our house.
My sister is hosting a birthday party this weekend for herself and her daughter. Baby is 2 this year. She invited about a million people and while I went last year I am really uncomfortable around large crowds of her friends. I feel "on display" and defensive.
I get introduced and people's eyes widen and they say, "YOU'RE her sister?" Yeah, yeah. We were estranged for a couple years and I absolutely know there are two sides to every story. I don't want to know how I was portrayed. I made the monumental effort last year to attend and this year decided I don't want to.
I responded to her invite by saying I was uncomfortable in the larger party scene and if she would give me other dates she was available, I'd love to come to Denver and spend some time with her on a much smaller, more intimate level. Maybe we could do lunch or take the baby to a park to play?
She never responded.
I'm not going to fret about it. The ball is in her court and if she chooses to blow me off? It's totally fine with me and I don't have any hard feelings. I have plenty o' things to keep me occupied, content and happy.
Just sayin' my first reaction was to chase after her and get a response or to come to the party anyway to show I was still making an effort for our relationship. Meh. Takes two people.
And really - I'm not at all upset or miffed. I guess my point is that I was able to step back, look at the situation in an unemotional way and decide it was now her responsibility to respond and my responsibility to get on with my life over here. In other words, "Let it go."
Ha! Lookit me actin' all grow'd up! Yay! We'll see if I can keep it goin'. grin.
Now y'all go off and have yourselves a most fabulous weekend! Tell me what mischief or fun you found when we all get back on Monday! Deal?